Cutting Ties

Seems like I'm not feeling the full effect of my numbness anymore, but I feel everything with a huge distane and I feel completely out of control of what is happening in front of me. 

I want to be in a place where I no longer remember the hurt or the pain, I want to be away dreaming softly where I hear a soft humming and whisper of a companion, a place where I am forgiven and cherished and loved... surrounded by cats on a ship sailing far far away.

I'm sorry and I love you. I don't think time heals all wounds this winter...