What we were

A day with Spam, Tom and Laura makes Jenif happy.

Mr Potato Head

It's all in the title and this is such a stupid post.

Mummy dizzle found him like this.

Burn Piano Island

Yesterday ended with this beautiful landscape, I felt so alive. I ran out on to the field clutching my camera and staring out across the fields and looked at that burning sky, feeling like the only person left in the world.

Just wanted to upload pictures from last night. Wasn't particularly epic, but I was surrounded by the best people. People I have missed very much. Laughing at Bachelor Frog and 4chan epicness on two super cool office chairs with Tom. I have missed it greatly, plus Tom's moved into a new room, which means it will now be abused by me coming round all the time to play Echo the Dolphin and Street Fighter. ..

[01:15:45] Tom: how did we manage to pull almost identical faces

[01:16:39] Jenny: because we are one

[01:16:46] Tom: we just are

Thats why he's the best

Eyes Down

I think I may just have to read a book. I'm so insanely bored. I rarely get bored. I'm just waiting on things to happen, when really I should be the one getting out there.

Maybe I will actually write some of 'Newt's Tale' but frankly I can't be arsed. I'm just not motivated for some reason, maybe I need to listen to the soundtrack or watch the films again. I usually have a few months of pure Alien concentration and then I over do it and have to calm down for a week or two.

Instead I think I'm going to listen to Bonobo and read One Day before dinner. I also feel like drinking lots of coffee and smoking lots of cigarettes.

But I thought I'd upload my favourite screen shots from all the movies I love and cherish. Scenes that have made me who I am and are the soul reason for me choosing a degree in film studies.

Mysterious Skin

Blade Runner

Ghost World

Amelie

Fight Club

To be Continued...

It didn't really bother me so much at first, but the days all merge into one, and the amount of tea cups and plates covered in crumbs seemingly rise to new heights. My weight goes up and I sleep for longer. I wake up in the middle of the night continuously, to comfort eat and then I climb back into bed to continue my less than exciting dreams.

Time is spent staring at my reflection every morning, trying to remember happiness. Find that person within that was truly happy at one point. At least I believed I was. Those little moments where I giggle, no one else around but I'm laughing at something on the internet or in a film or a short passage in a novel I'm reading. My only friends. At least thats what it feels like. Pushing everything I love as far away from myself as possible. Avoiding people, avoiding problems, avoiding confrontation.

I think this is the first time I've cried alone in a month. And believe me, that is impressive.

These photos have collected up over the past few days. They all blended, mainly in colour and mood. I have more but these fitted how I feel right now so much better. Empty spaces with warm glows.

Crinkly Chips & Jacket Potatoes.

So I have disappeared for a few weeks. Saarrrry guys!

I've been in Weymouth visiting dear Joseph, the lovely Sam ( the author of 'and in my hands a camera' ) & co!

I had a fucking rad time consisting of Inception watching, Tekken 6 playing (which surprisingly I'm not all that bad at) eating too much take away and drinking not enough alcohol!

I feel very fat and nerdy at this point readers and I also feel slightly silly as I forgot to take my camera with me!

Instead I've got a few photos from today:

They include Joe, Noel, Natalie & McCain Crinkly Oven Chips...

I think I'll sleep well tonight

Listening to: Commix - Strictly